My Mind

Is filled

With memories

Of twenty

Three

Years

Of being alive.

I'm learning

That I'm going

To be okay,

No matter what

Life

Throws my way.

The good

Will always

Outweigh

The bad.



Bittersweet moments

A-

Knowing
Nothing
Will ever
Be the same
Again
Is the bitterest of bitter
Yet the sweetest of sweet.

Change
Is the one constant
In life.

People come
And go
But memories
Last
Forever.

I tried
To hold
On tight.

To get you
To stay.

In the end,
There's nothing
I can do to make
You stay.

It made me stronger.

[Healing.]

Think what

You want,

And do what you're gonna do.

I don't know

If I'll ever fully

Get you out of my head,

But things are getting better.

I am not going to lay

Around

And be a victim.



Dear Ron.

Saturday was your birthday.
You would have been
sixty two.

Everyone was right:

The pain never
Really
Goes away.

You just learn to deal.

I hate
The fact
You're gone
And have been
For almost two years.

I miss you,
Constantly.
And,
I will always love you.

You are the best step dad
A girl could ask for.

<3

Dear Mom.

I know we've had
Our ups
And downs
In the past,
But despite it all,

You and I
Have an unbreakable
Bond.

No one will ever
Take your place
In my heart.

Or my life.

You are the strongest
Woman
I know.
And I am so proud
To be your daughter.

I love you.

Saturday May 5th 2012

Sitting here.
In my pajamas.
With the cutest little girl in Oregon.

Want to write,
But don't know
What to say.

Maybe here.

I'm happy
With how far
I've come
And where I'm headed.

I am content.

And thats a first
In a REALLY long time.

Sure,
I have my moments,
But I know 
I am even better

Then before.

I've made a decision.

Dear Peeps,

This is for every
One of you.

I've made
A decision.

No matter what
You say,
Do,
Or think.

I will be okay.
No I will be great.

I am a survivor.

And.

YOU WILL NOT HURT ME EVER AGAIN.

Thank you and good night.

[Words]

 Darkness has come.
Night is here.

'You are my best frien forever,
Nothing will change that.'


Spoken words
That have been
In the back of my mind
Creep
Up and haunt
 My dreams.


To both of you,
You are NOT
Above everyone else,
So get off your high
Horse.

You're not perfect
And drugs are bad.

So much for best friends forever.