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Goooo Alli!

For both of you

I am 

So done

With all of you.

Thinking 

You're better

Than me

And thinking you can come

In and out

Of my life

As you please.

(To you-)

You saw 

What I went 

Through 

For two years

And you always said

I could get out.

You were 

My lifeline.

Now.

 I stand here,

Reliving 

My nightmare

Thinking how much

I wish you could see.

And 

[YOU-]

Six years.

Wasted.

I'll never get it.

There are times

That I've wasted

Being sad over you...

Wondering

What I did wrong.

  You were so much more

Than my best friend,

You were my sister.

Now I see how toxic

You are.

I don't need you

Anymore.

New awkward questions for your amusement

Age; 24 and almost 1/4 years old.
Full legal name; Do you really want to know?? Allison Kate Bolton.
Name preferred; Alli.
Birthday; Are you trying to steal my identity?
Nickname;  Alli, Al, Norman, Farm, Beaver, Alli Cat, Catdog, Dawg, Alli Cakes, Captain Alli Beaver Fever, Muffin, Lovins, Lovey, Fluffyyyyyy....too many moreeee
Current mood; Content and happy.
Current Relationship Status; Single, yo. HAHAHAHAHAH
Hobby; Um what about 'hobby"?
Best girl friend; I don't like to discriminate against people. Therefore I have no best friends.

Best boy friend; My above statement applies to this too.
Likes; On Facebook? Too many to say.
Dislikes; I'd approve of a dislike button on Facebook.
Favorite food; Sigh... practically everything.
Favorite drink; WATER and COFFEEEE
Ever been high; On life!
Regret; No need for regrets.
Confession; Trees are nice
Someone you miss; What about them?
What im doing right now; Homework. Sitting. Coffee drinking. Filling this out. Listening to music.
What im thinking right now; 330 is too earlyyyy.
Siblings; Four of my favorite ladies
Oldest or youngest; Youngesttttt! 

You

WHAT
GIVES
YOU
THE 
RIGHT
TO 
COME
IN 
AND
OUT 
OF
MY
LIFE
AS 
YOU 
PLEASE
?????

Why do I still feel like this?




God.
Girl,
You'll never get it.

Walls.

Memories flood

My mind.

Walls 

Built

People hurt.

Feelings grow

And shrink.

 Finally

Right where

I want to be...

Almost.



Things that I'm thankful for

In no particular order:

Here it goes:

Sunny days.

Rain.

Twirling.

Beach days.

Oxygen.

Mom.

Dad.

Sisters.

Jay O.

School.

Family in general.

Laughter.

Smiling.

Books.

Writing.

Good days.

Bad days.

BHFF'S

Friends.

COFFEE!



Letting go

Of all the bad
Feelings.


Wanting,
Needing
To be
A better
Person.

Wishing things
Would feel
"Normal"
Again.

Knowing everything is different.

I just need to breathe.